so, my birthday is getting nearer with each depressing day
there might be the one or other day, when i think it is getting lighter in the dark
these days are marked by him
he for one is the reason why i am happy
and sad
at the same time
so i’ve reached adulthood
why can’t life stop being a moody teenager?
so it was with a yelp that i realized how much this blog actually sucks
for those who had the exquisite pleasure of reading some of it i honestly have to apologize
so much has happened since i have posted the poem and even more since that last more detailed entry
i am sorry indeed
although i still think that this blog isn’t that well read, i do know some people who have looked through it and those are the ones i have let down
please scratch me … hard
the poem i have written in november last year, was on the spur of a pure, splendid and creative moment and it has been long since i last had one of those blasts
it all happened in october, when i started college in graz
believe me, it was one hell of an adjustment
all happened so fast
it was just a question of time when the homesickness would get weaker and the blitheness and excitement of leading a life in an unknown city would kick in
it took me quite some time to get used to living alone
you can imagine how it was
but i’ll spare you the uninteresting little details of how i cooked my first meal in a kitchen that i share with another 40 people or how i read The Time Traveller’s Wife instead of checking out the neighbourhood during my first days as a student
it was a time of unsteadiness and unfamiliarity
when still living with my parents, all i wanted was to get out and explore the world
when given the opportunity to, who would have thought i’d be scared of the unknown
but weeks have passed and finally i can say that i am more than comfortable with my new life
i even started to bemoan my initial reaction
thanks to one person, all i want is to stay put and not move a single inch, for i believe that every step away from them would be one in the wrong direction
first semester is over but the hardship is not
it was nothing like i expected and for that i am thankful
weird
i feel like a totally different person when i look in the mirror though i still look the same
it all just takes some time getting used to
i hope to keep you updated on my life alone
damn
i should have done that some time ago
